My favorite star ( my mama) !!!!!

I thought I would stop by...it's been a while since I last wrote on my blog. I can say it's because I have been really busy, but that's not the truth. Well, I have been a little busy...but.. mostly lazy. I'll myself I'm going to post today but then I'm like, not. I am going to see my mama on Tuesday. I talk with her on the phone but I need to go see her. She had some bad news given to her on Saturday. She was told she has 1-3 months to live. That's a lot to take. My sister called me and told me that my favorite star in my life is dimming out and one day it will be burned out.

My mama had to have open heart surgery and since then she's had so many problems. She was told she has a mild case of Cirrhosis of the Liver. I was like what the heck!! My mama doesn't drink. I have since found out that you can have that without drinking. Come to find out that the medicine she was given during her surgery messed her up, that helped cause her having Cirrhosis of the liver. My sister(Gail) told me she thought mama would take the news really bad, but mama told Gail that she had a dream last week about the doctors telling her she didn't have much longer to live.

My mama hasn't had the greatest of lives. I have always want to get lots & lots of money to take care of her and now that's not possible. Gail and my mama talked about it and Gail told her that if she's ready to go it's okay, mama told her the only thing is keeping her here is us...all the kids. She said she wouldn't be able to see us any longer. My sister said that made it so much harder to listen to. I can not image not being able to talk to her, give her a hug,send her a card. I have not cried yet because I feel like if I allow myself that privilege to ease my pain that way I wouldn't stop.

So, I'm waiting until after she's gone. Do I sound like I don't care? My sister Gail was crying when she told me and when I called my sister Cindy, she started crying and I haven't cried once. Am I being reasonable, thinking that it'll hit me after she's gone? I don't know, I know when I see mama on Tuesday she'll tell me that this will happen to me if I don't take care of myself. I'm a diabetic and I have trouble with my liver now. I have a fat patch on my liver and I have to eat low fat or nonfat foods. I know I have to look out for myself..my health but at times I'm like who the hell cares, I'll eat what I want to. But now, I have to do better about my health because I don't want to get that line that she got on Saturday... you have 1-3 months to live. Is it better knowing that you're dying or is it best to be blissful by not knowing? I can't image hearing those words but I know I will if I don;t get my health straightened out. I'm not fat and That's what I keep telling myself... you're not fat so you're okay. My favorite star is dimming and all I want it to do is shine bright forever.

What a mess?????

Can you believe the Health Care bill passed??? I don't know, I know we need something done about it, but do we really need the government in our heath care? I think it's great that they are going to fix it where the insurance company won't give you coverage if you have a pre existing health problem. But from what I have heard about the bill this is the only thing that's worth the whole mess that has gone on this past year.

I saw on the news this morning how people are throwing rocks/bricks thur the windows of Democrats that voted for the bill. Of course the Democrats shouted out it's the Republicans that are stirring the pot. Not....it's not the Republicans stirring the pot making trouble. It's the Democrats shoving this ridicules bill down our throats just so the President can sign this bill to show that he finally did something. This man and his followers have done EXACTLY what they accused the last administration of doing. Pork bills added in and all those secrete meetings behind closed doors, that's what was supposed to be done away with. Yea right!!

Have you noticed how Obama looks when someone says's a comment or remark on something he is saying or trying to pass off on us? He gets that look of'' How dare they have an opinion of their own, I'm in charge here and I KNOW WHAT"S GOOD FOR THEM''. To me he acts like he is better than us. He is trying his damn est to change our country and for all of the people who put him in office they responsible for helping him change/destroy our country. I didn't vote for him but I did try to give him a chance but he hasn't done anything but continue to do what HE wants to do and the hell with the rest of us. We need someone to run our country not kill it. He isn't a great president.. he's not even a good one.Our country is being killed by the very people that was put in charge to take care of it......Republicans & Democrats are both the blame. It's no wonder people are pissed and going nuts, the government is no longer helping us they are destroying us.

Bilderberg Group,Is Our Own President One Of Them???

Things are changing here in America. I don't think it's for the better. I believe the Prez and his people have a agenda of their own and it means changing America. They want to take our rights away and fix us to their liking. I knew there was something about Obama that I didn't trust. I was right to listen to myself. No, I couldn't care less that he's black, hell Bush wasn't my favorite person ether.

When you have Obama meeting with the Bildergerg group in secret and they gave the go ahead for him to run for the office you know damn well we are going to hell in a hand basket. These are some of the most powerful people in the world and they are meeting in secret. WHY??? People get your heads out of the sand and read up on this,we are in big trouble. Why are we letting these people take over our lives, our country. They want to do away with a lot of us, they want to control everything and they mostly likely already do. You have powerful people in the media, banking, energy and our President. Wake up people, WE are in big trouble. We need to bring these people out from the shadows into the light as soon as possible!!!!

Obama, what has he done yet?

Obama is in such a hurry to pass any health care plan. He said that whatever bill passes the Senate he's going to sign it. One thing about Lieberman, he has nuts to stand up and say quit adding on pork spending. The Democrats don't care how much it costs to put this so called health bill in action. Putting a part in there about finding people that don't buy insurance is total out & out bullshit.

What is Biden got strong words for Lieberman for? Biden is just another yes man to Obama, maybe he should have some balls and tell Obama that this bill is wrong and they should really work on it and not try to push it thru just because Obama wants to show the world that he has finally done something in this soon to be year of him being in office. I think that's a piss poor reason to rush a bill thru before it is work out completely....don't you.

I have insurance, but that doesn't mean I can go to the doctor or buy all my meds.. You pay all that money to the insurance companies and if you do get really sick they can deny you treatment which is also bullshit. The people in Washington( both parties) should fix the health care insurance companies and the way they operate before shoving their so called health care bill down our throats.....by the way, it won't go in effect for another two-three years anyway. So,WHY THE RUSH??? Oh, I know... just to make Obama look like he's doing his job...the one that he's getting paid to do. I believe he will go in the history books as the do nothing President, just like Bush will go in the books as the President that started a war and couldn't finish it.

Blah, Blah Today:{:{:{

Feeling blah blah today. Can't seem to get going today. Have you ever had those days where you are wondering why you are here and where the hell did all the years go?

That's my problem. I'm trying to find out why I'm here and what do I have to do to show that I am here. I would love to write but I can't seem to get the words from my mind to paper. When I put it on paper it just doesn't seem to really say or match my thoughts. I would like to write a book on ''Does evil recognize evil when they meet''? I have started but I'm hopeless. I can write in my journal but can't do anything else. Just rambling today, no talking about what's going on in the country or the world, just me rambling.

The darkness just brushing my fingertips today. I guess that's why I'm blue, wants to grab my hand but I can't let it grab me or it'll pull me all the way day.

What Do You Think? Has Obama Kept Any Promises?

Okay..went out and voted this morning. I did not got for one party. I voted for whom I thought was the right person for the job. But of course we know what's gonna happen when they take the oath of office. Their promises and what they ran on will go right out the window... as usual.

On Newsweek's website they ask if Obama has kept his promises that he ran on. My answer is a big fat NO. But....neither has any other President that took the office before him. But what gets me is that his main campaign message was CHANGE. It looks like there is no change at all and if there is change it's not good at all. it takes him forever to make a damn decision about anything. You can't keep blaming everything on the past president. They have the Demarcated votes to accomplish things...Why aren't they doing it then. Maybe it's because some people up there are finally seeing him for what he is....Just another blowhole that will not do anything but what he wants done. It will be our countries down fall, he will be the one to kill our country and it has nothing to do about color. It has to do about him and his own agenda.

Stupid People or Is It People acting Stupid????

Okay, get this. I have written about Norfolk Virginia a couple of times now. This time it's not Norfolk but it's still in Virginia. A man got up one early morning and went into his kitchen to get something out of his fridge. Okay nothing bad so far..right. Oooppps...did I mention he was Naked!!! So what...right. No..it's not because you have this woman and her kid cutting thru his back yard and SHE looks through his window and the next thing he knows the cops are at door.

It seems that got a call from A Woman concerned because there was this man naked a the window where he can be seen. I **** you not. Now he his being charged with indecent exposure and something else. I have to get the story off the newspaper's website and post it for you. This woman trespassed on his property with her kid and she's the one that called the cops on him. The dumb ass prosecutor is actually charging him. What is wrong with this woman? What is wrong with the dumb ass that's going thru with this bullshit charges? What is wrong with our justice system?